I feel so bad. I feel so guilty. I can't sleep, I just feel like shit now. This feeling is worst than breaking up. I'm so sorry :C I have been neglecting my family, over and over again. I'm sorry. Just now, have a chat with mum. She said that dad is angry with me. I know what happen, so I walked away. I know dad is very disappointed in me. I know that. He is always there for me, getting what I want, try his best to satisfy me. He went overseas to earn more money for us, come back to visit us whenever he could. But yet, i treat him like nothing. I'm sorry. Grandma dote me a lot, giving me money, buying me stuffs. But yet, i also treat her like nothing. I'm so sorry. Yesterday, Grandma went for operation. I told dad i will visit her after her operation, but end up, i went out with my friends.
I know that is my fault, and i know that I'm a bastard, but i can't do anything now, but just to say I'm sorry. Mum care for me, bought me things that i want. She bought me a DSLR Camera, just to make me happy. She's always there for me, call me up to check on me, afraid that i will do something wrong. But i'm always think that she is annoying, shout at her, and hang up her calls. Until now, i finally realised that you are caring for me. I know i'm wrong, and i will try my best not to make you worry anymore, I'm sorry. My brother care for me so much, giving me the best, he even bought me a soccer jersey that i always wanted. But, i always make him angry, ignore his advise. For all those bad things i have done, I"m sorry. My sister is also good to me, giving me whatever she have. whenever she got sweets, food or stuffs, she will still leave it for me instead of taking it for herself. But yet, i shout at her, scold her, find her irritating and even busted her. I'm seriously sorry.
Think back all these they have done for me, and yet i busted them, i feel so bad. I know it's too late, but from today on, i will do whatever i can to make you all happy. Dad come back only for a month, and i will try spend more time with him next time.
B is sleeping, and I"m sorry to wake Xinyi up just now. I feel so much better after typing out all these, thanks Kimleng for accompany me just now, and also thanks Yenlin for listening to me. For the last time, I"m sorry for whatever i have done. I promise that i will try my best to spend more time with you all.
F.A.M.I.L.Y. , Father And Mother, I Love You. :D
I LOVE MY DAD, MUM, GRANDMA, BROTHER AND MY SISTER! <333333